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November 15th, 2008

10:47 pm: Last Post
A lot of things have happened lately.
And I'm really really really hurting so much.
It's only made me wanna be a loner like
128764358765432 times more.

Abandoning my blog is part of the loner plan.
So very very sad, byebye blog.

Prom pictures.
Not bad, considering the fact that I spent
half the time eating while people around me
were snap snap snapping away with their cameras.

I think there are more stupid ones of Kim and I
in ShiMin's camera.


Haha yeah those kinda pictures
























I feel quite sad now.
I hope that my life will be less complicated
once I stop socialising.

Byebye


Current Mood: sad

November 9th, 2008

09:13 pm: SUPERHUMAN LONER ~~
Okay I didn't realise the font was so flippin small.

I've been reading everybody's blogs/LJs/Wtv
and everyone posted on what
combination they're gonna take in JC.

My combi is the ultimate
"Stupid-still-can-mug-and-get-A"
combination.

Geog, Econs, ChinaStuds (in eng) and H1 math!
I did get above 2.8, okay!

Ok I know it toally goes against RJ norms
to take H1 math (cus everyone's a genius).
But it's ok I never was normal, never will be :D
Although... I am doomed to be the scum of the school
because I didn't apply for the
Humanitites Scholarship,
and I take Arts.

Hahah omg all the teachers are gonna
think I'm not smart enough to take science
and not smart enough to qualify for the
scholarship either.
Not like that's not true --, but
HEY EVERYONE IS EQUAL OK.

Watch out RI(JC)!
HERE COMES THE
Loner.
Have I told u I aspire to be a loner in JC? 
Because I don't want no drama.
No no no no drama!

Oh oh and Kim and I aren't going to prom
as french fries because...
1) It is v.attract attention which is totally me,
but I aspire to be a loner remember?
2) We're a bit lazy to make the costume
3) My mum says that bitchy people at the prom
will laugh at us and say
"HAHAH FOOLS THINK THEY LOOK SO CUTE
BUT THEY ACTUALLY LOOK SO STUPID!"

Awesome Possum.
My new favourite phrase!

Had Mexican food for lunch.
Margaritas@Dempsy.



Hahah I'm such a freak!
I can't believe I drew this!!!
Hahahhaa!!!!!!
:]


 


Current Mood: full

November 2nd, 2008

10:07 pm: More than anything
 
Sorry

God:
Forgive me because my pride has turned me against the world.

Myself:
Sorry I've killed myself because I think I'm better than
the rest of the world and I can do whatever I want to do.

1:
Sorry if I've been a bad sister.
Sorry if I've ever made you feel like I'm a better child than you are.
Sorry for shouting at you because I thought I was better than you.
Sorry for ever disrespecting you, because I know that you're a beautiful person
and all you need is someone to be there to push you and motivate you.
Sorry if I've been selfish because what's mine is yours.
Sorry if I've made you feel unloved, I'm here for you whenever you need to talk.

2:
Sorry I've been isolating myself from the rest of the world,
I feel like I've been a lost, empty vessel.
Sorry if I've ever made you guys feel like you aren't
important enough for me to spend time with,
I hope you understand, I've just needed time to pray and think.
Sorry that I've been ignoring your pleas to come out cus
you know that I've been wasting my life at home,
instead of spending the last few days with you guys.

3:
Sorry I ever made you feel like I want to be more than you are.
Sorry if I've ever thought that I could be you.

4:
Not sorry anymore.


Thank You

God:
Thank You for not giving up on me even though I failed to hear Your voice before.
Thank You for reaching out to me through various ways and
thank You for making me feel worthy to carry out your will.

T:
Thank you thank you thank you from the very bottom of my heart
that you continued to ask me to church time after time.
Thank you for listening to God and taking time out to talk to me,
care for me, you've helped me grow into a bigger person.
Thank you for showing me that there is beauty in people after all.


I'm not scared anymore, of what's to come.
I want to make the people around me feel happier and loved,
more than anything...




October 14th, 2008

08:08 pm: I LUBB U BRITBRIT <3
AHMAGAWWWSH
BRITNEY IS LOOKING
FABOOOO
IN HER NEW VIDEO.

I LOVE U BRITBRIT!
4EVA AND EVA!

Okay Laziness has officially take over me.
I promise promise promise
I will do a proper post once school ends.
Which is in 3 weeks.
Hahahahahahahahaha.

And I'll post up all the pictures I took in the time I was slacking/sleeping/eating.

P.s. Have I mentioned that I eat like a whale now?!
I'm not even kidding or trying to b all
"Oooh I am so fat I eat sooo much when I actually eat 2 slices of cucumber"
I freaking eat like 5-6 plates of rice/noodles per day.
Wth it's like all the anorexic girls in the world passed their hunger to me.

Oh pooh, I wish I had the guts to b anorexic.
OH LORD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH
TO RESIST THE CALL OF THE FOOD.





Current Mood: optimistic

September 7th, 2008

10:51 pm: And when you come back...
My eldest brother reads my blog O:
But he's been AWOL for the entire of today.


Hello 哥哥 WeiHong.
I miss you terribly.
Work hard in Japan!
Hang in there fats!!
Please pick up your phone!
We're really worried.
Always look at the card we gave you!!
Loves you forever!!! <3

I've been bumming too much because
there's no one at home to entertain me.
Both my brothers are gone.
And my dad is away too.
But my mum has been lovely and
we worked out in the gym this morning (:

She tells me that I'm very emotional.
She gave me some really good advice:

"Never love a man more than your life.
Love yourself more.
And most importantly, love your MOTHER"

Hahaha. She's crazy. She's currently doing Taichi
THREE TIMES A WEEK. Insane.

Anywayz! On Wednesday, the netballers had an outing.
And although there were only 6 people,
and only 3 people stayed over.
It was still super fun <3













 
 

On Friday, I met with up Melia. And bumped into Shaun and Lutfi.


Shaun the bunny

Lutfi the I Don't Wanna Know

Melia the sucker!!

I WANNA ESCAPE!


Current Mood: bouncy

August 27th, 2008

09:20 pm: ONE MORE TO GO!!

Okay this is very very awesome.
I have one paper left, and the papers have
left me feeling okay so far.
Not good.
Not bad.
I feel fine (:

The dwarves in my head
and buzzing with excitement. 
They can't wait to finally stop working.
Hehe.

I last left off saying I'd post about NDP. 
But I'm quite lazy...
Kim and I just had a ball being our stupid selves.
Hehe speaking of balls....

You know how during NDP, they let down the 
inflatable balls through the crowd.
Yeah the darn balls initially
REFUSED 
to come in our direction.
So when it finally did Kim and I were like damn ENTHUSIASTIC.

So we jumped jumped hopped hopped..
"IT'S COMING HAHAHA IT'S COMING!"
.
.
.
.
*OOOOF...OOOWWWWW!*

Omg the ball just crushed Kim and I.
And we somehow hit it out of the arena.
DOWN THE STAIRS THE BALL ROLLS.

Oh gosh, could we embarrass ourselves any further?

I nearly crapped in my pants laughing.
Okay pictures for Kim my DAWWLING.



 


I only uploaded this cus Kim looks mega cute





POLL: WHO PULLED AVI'S GAY SHADES BEST?












SO MUCH LOVEXX <3



Current Mood: crazy

August 10th, 2008

10:37 pm: I LOVE SINGAPORE!!!

I just realised I haven't blogged about
Singfest.
I shall do that when Lex sends photos. 
Anywayy......


HAPPY 43RD BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
The parade wasn't the best,
but the company definitely was (:
Let me warn you guys, I'm gonna be 
swamping you guys with pictures.

NDP celebrations
Okay the fashion parade went pretty alright. 
My objective was to make everyone laugh and I think I did. 
Will upload pictures when Lex sends them to me.



SMILE OF ENCOURAGEMENT
LEVEL 10000000000000000!!!!

Gosh I love Val Tan <3
Okay I actually have more pictures
with Elaine.
Til she sends them over.

High Tea with Kim
Kim and I always have a ball.
Omg the retard got stomach cramps fromm all the laughing.









Infant sugar cube
Gotta love Kim <3

Finishing with a BANG........




Eeeeeee suxx.
So small ):

Okay Kim, click on the photo.
It will become bigger.

I will blog about NDP another day. 
Am going to the gym tomorrow morning.
BUAIXXX.


X and Os <3 <3



(F1 F1 F1!!!! I can't wait!)



Current Mood: happy

July 29th, 2008

11:32 pm: My dear dear Feivel

Feivel was the name of
the Jewish boy
Anna, the german girl
worte to.
How classixx. Breaking up
with a guy thru a letter.

But that's done and I am going
to reward myself with some 
one on one time with my 
blog. Lubbb <3

I was talking to Penny today and 
we were talking about how 
we look in the mirror a lot.

And I think people who look in the mirror aren't vain.
They're just seeking beauty amongst imperfection.

Maybe it's just me.
Because I try to do that for everyone.
Hitler wasn't purely a megalomaniac.
Scorned perhaps?
Failed artist, living in a country with lots 
of tall blonde people.
See now you wouldn't know 
cus you don't know what it feels like
to stick out like a sore thumb.

Being different is a whole different thing.
But when you're singled out,
you can't exactly use the excuse 
of individuality anymore, can you?

Too late for excuses now.
Not being able to do well in tests
isn't a very sound reason.

Well.
Who really cares?
Pooey c(:<



I am kinda tired of "Yours til the what evers"

S.W.A.K. <3
Sealed with a kiss



Current Mood: okay

July 27th, 2008

11:19 pm: Let's learn to plate!

What a stupid title for a chem project.
Did they ever consider it might have been the 
slightest bit misleading?
We had the best fun making the video, 
Kim Eileen and I.
I can't remember myself laughing that
hard. 

I shan't spoil it for you guys, but here's a little
preview:

I look the most normal, so you can
probably imagine how
Eileen and Kim look like.

I will upload the rest when you guys have
watched the video in class.

Yours til the Candy Corns ^^

I think Candy Corn is the cutest
candy in the world.
I will dress up as a candy corn
for halloween.



Current Mood: crazy

July 24th, 2008

09:34 pm: Racial Harmony Day

RHD 2008
 
 
 
 
 


Sunday Tuition
Ok Lydia and I got jacked. 
Zhiming said it was his
16th.
 
 
 
Omg. John is the funniest guy I've ever met.
And I don't even think he tries.
Pink Earphones.
Classic.

Yours til the Dandy Lions.


 
 



Current Mood: tired

July 15th, 2008

10:46 pm: Study-udy-udy, Buddy!

Things Tessa needs to do

It is actually I huge pile of shit sitting on my table.
And YES I have touched them! Surprisingly! 
I feel quite accomplished cus I've actually done a few things on my 
To-Do list (:

But..
What Tessa mostly does

I know this is just going to reinforce the fact that I am a camwhore, 
but honestly, I don't know who took these and I am 
seriously a bit scared.
My parents are renovating the house so I'm afraid it might be
one of the foreign workers.
HAHAHAHAHAH.
That sounds so ridiculous.
I am not going to deny the fact that I am a camwhore.
I AM A CAMWHORE.
Plus the pictures look kinda nice (: 
GIGGLE GIGGLEZ
Maybe it was my maid cus she keeps playing with my Rubik's cube.
She is secretly a genius man. She's solved like half of it
without even looking at cheat online.
I keep telling her if she went to school, she'd be a freaking genius. 
I'm doing my S.S PT on Foreign Domestic Workers (:
Always been interested in that topic.

I am going to chillz in mother's room now but 
before I go....
Just for kicks...
Since everyone's like mugging like crazy..
What song do YOU listen to when you study?
Hehe I listen to the Rocky Theme song.
BOMP, BOMPBOMPBOMP, BOMPBOMPBOMP, BOMPBOMPBOMP, BOOOOMP.
Leave a comment (:
It's like open for everyone! Just don't tell me something sick
like Cheesy Porno Music. Hahah.
I will create an informal forum from now on. Hehe.
And then you acn read other people's comments (:

Yours til the Gummy Bears! (:



Current Mood: happy

July 9th, 2008

11:40 pm: Heartbreaker

Haha.
How could I ever forget how fun
Camwhoring is?

http://www.thebestpageintheuniverse.net/c.cgi?u=cam_whore

YOU + WEBCAM - CLOTHES - DIGNITY = $$$
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
I had to Google Cam Whore to get that page and 
lots of shit came up. Haha.
Sick porno surfers. 
GO MDA! BAN PORN! DEPRIVE BIG FAT LOSERS
OR THEIR HOBBIES!

Dance Night!
 

Picture with Kim, Jermaine and Penny for screwed up ):
Jermaine looked like the hot clubber mama
that she wish she were in the photo.
Damn I need to edit it.

Yours til the Meiji Crackers



Current Mood: sleepy

July 7th, 2008

03:31 pm: Oh god my feet hurt

I haven't blogged in the longest time thanks to structured study. I am seriously on the verge of cracking. Thank God for Irmelia Bilal who cracks me up, you Sausage Boiler, you (:

I am going to upload lots and lots of photos because photos make me feel better.

I miss Japan so so so much. It is so freaking awesome cus the have TWO Disneylands, the shopping is so fun, the food is so good. I mean c'mon, THEY SELL FREAKIN RAMEN FROM A VENDING MACHINE. 
I swear I am going to work at Tokyo Disneyland when I grow up. Be a strawberry popcorn seller or something.

1. Shopping In Japan Is SEX





2. Disneyland/sea




3. Mount Something I Will Call It Sulphur



Damn I wish I lived in Japan. Haha I'd be a freaking giant.

FFAF was yesterday and it was the most fun I've had in a long time. Thanks Vic and XW for putting so much effort into it (: You guys did great!



Haha what a poser. After Hours.
'SUP.

Yours til the Zebra Stripes!



Current Mood: happy

June 23rd, 2008

07:10 pm: No one's listening
Hi Tessa is back from Tokyo and back to school. I'm actually pretty busy this entire week so I will updateyou guys on my sorry sad life over the weekend.

People have been launching psycho attacks on me. Mum, friend, the Sun. 

I'm currently pretty all alone in the world right now and I really feel like I'm gonna get cancer by the time I'm 20. 

I love eye bags I love eye bags.

Please, just end it quick so that it'll be over. I'm closing my eyes now...... End it.
 



I need help and maybe a lot of sleep.

May 26th, 2008

10:47 pm: Monday Night Laughs (Cries)
Star World: Monday Night Laughs
My Wife and Kids followed by 8 Simple Rules.
I'd usually laugh the crap out of myself, but tonight, they broadcasted 2 super sad episodes. I don't know if it's just cus I could relate to them. It's just everytime I think of my brother leaving home to study abroad, I get so sad. I think I'm just like Claire in the show. You never realise how much you love the person til he's gone ): And I don't know how I related to Bridgette ad Carrie in 8 Simple Rules, but everytime I think of one of my family members dying, I cry. 
Did I mention my dog died? ): Poor Dober. I feel like the biggest jerk in the world cus he was sick for so long and I didn't spend a single minute with him. He still behaved he didn't have a care in the world, as agile and spunky as usual. I didn't even cry when he died.. I promise I will spend time with the big dogs during the holidays. Promise.

Hillsongs on Saturday with Hutchinson Kim Ai-Ling was GREAT. Just feeling 7000 Singaporeans worshipping God for that 4 hours was absolutely amazing. They were right when they said that we wouldn't be the same after leaving the concert. I don't know about you guys who went, but I've never felt closer to God. 
Some of you don't realise it, but once you start to distance yourself from God, things just don't go smoothly for you. I haven't been going to church lately, and that usually isn't that much of a problem cus I still pray and do quiet time everyday. I think that Church is good cus you learn more about God, but saying that someone is a bad Christian for not going to church just doesn't make sense. Cus if all the people in the world can worship God from different churches all around the world, why can't you do it at home? Please don't judge someone just cus they don't go to church. 
But now I think I don't have the right to say that. I haven't been praying or doing my quiet time recently, and to be honest, my life has been spiralling down at a scarily fast rate. It isn't like my life was any better before I stopped reading the Bible, I just realise that people and situations start to react differently. 
The worst thing is the guilt. The guilt of how God has done so much for us, and yet I can't dedicate 30 minutes just to kneel and thank Him for all that He's done for us.

Okay I'm sorry for being a blabber bear, I've just been feeling very guilty lately. Very hilarious visuals for you cookies (:




Okay Kim and I collected 80 light sticks. We looked like beggars. Nice shit.

Yours til the Grass Hop
(per)s


Current Mood: guilty

May 23rd, 2008

09:37 pm: Gilrs have buttons, boys have poles. When touching happens, take the toll!
Last day of school (:
It was a pretty crappy last day of school. First I had to stay back in school for open house rehearsal which was totally useless cus they lost our CD. So I stayed back for an hour for nothing. Then, I get ripped off by a stupid cab driver who took so long to get to Wisma. Then when I got to Wisma, I found out my friends had to leave. Plus Brandon Ng was irritating the crap out of me, I was this close to punching him. So I got really mad and stormed off to Starbucks. The stupidgirl at Starbucks pissed me off. I wanted to punch her.
But it's all ok now (: My cousin (not Tricia or Chester) came over and she just had to say she had 4th in her class. Show my mother her report book summore. God I hate kiss-ups. I think I was a bit like that when I was younger. Thank God Tricia didn't kill me. Haha.

I can't be bothered to type. My hands hurt and I got my first 200 something note streak for guitar hero. Medium OKAY!

James Blunt <3
 
 
Hi Jan and Tiq. Here you can grab them (:
He was god damn awesome. He frikkin danced on the piano and shaked his booty.

!Yima's Surprise Birthday
Okay Tricia Chester and I basically danced around to Bollywood music like idiots wearing headdresses that you wear in the desert. I don't really know what kind of ethnic costume it is, but it sure looked damn funny on us 3 retards.
But the look on Yima's face was priceless <3

I love how I look like a camel in the second picture




Yep that's about it. After that we went for KARAOKE!!!!
I love Canto-pop and proud of it (: even tho I can't sing for nuts.

Okay I just want to post these pictures cus they're funny.
Now laugh it out; 
West side laugh it out, South side laugh it out, East side laugh it out, North side laugh it out! (Haha WTF)


Yuki sleeping on top of Anna. WHAT A BITCH.

I just remembered I have a mole on my ankle bone. Wonder is that means I can run very fast or something?..?*^^?&~?o
Haha I don't know why the hell I typed all the weird symbols.

Yours til the Fairy Cakes <3


Current Mood: amused

May 13th, 2008

11:14 pm: Justice of the Peace
"A Justice of the Peace in Singapore derives his powers from statute law. He is appointed by the President of the Republic of Singapore, under the provisions of section 11(l) of the Subordinate Courts Act (Cap.321). The President may revoke the appointment of any Justice of the Peace. A newly appointed Justice of the Peace is required by section 17 of the Subordinate Courts Act, to take the oath of office and allegiance as set out in the Schedule to the Subordinate Courts Act, before exercising the functions of his office."
http://www.pmo.gov.sg/PMOHQ/JusticesOfThePeace/

Congrats Pops on recieving the title of Justice of the Peace.

Pops in the Papers

Just got back from James Blunt. Absolutely Amazing.
Feeling too tired and crappy to post anything.


Current Mood: crappy

May 11th, 2008

01:16 am: Sorry

I am so embarrassed.
This entire time I thought that you were mad cus of a guy. Shame on me for thinking that.
It's obvious that you're above that and I'm so sorry I couldn't realise it before.
Never did I imagine that the incident would affect you so much. 
It's so upsetting to think that there are people out there saying shit about you, when it was my fault. Honestly, as stupid as it sounds, I never thought it was. And that's what I'm so sorry about.
So here's a public display of my apology, and I know you'll never be able to let go of what I've done to you. I don't expect or even want things to go back to normal, because it's not worth it for you to put any effort into trying to be my friend again.
Thank you for making me realise my flaws, and you're a beautiful person, with such a big heart for being able to forgive me, cus I will never be able to forgive myself. So for your sake, I'm going to stay, hell as far away from you and your friends as possible.

I really don't understand...
How I could have been so oblivious to the fact that I was in the wrong, not you.
I'm scared. I'm scared because what you said is true.
I'm not as good of a friend that you were to me.
Maybe that's why I'm alone.

And the sad thing is.. I don't blame anyone.



Current Mood: disgusted

May 8th, 2008

09:52 pm: The things you're most afraid of are usually the most worthwhile
4 words:
LIB-ER-A-TION :D
Math wasn't too bad.
Well it wasn't exactly good, but it wasn't bad either.
After school was hanging out with the baboons, which was honestly the most fun I've had in a pretty long time.
Macs with Kim, Jermaine and Penny while Lex had her Chem SPA. Amazingly (yet not so surprisingly), we spent the entire brunch talking about food. 
Was joined by Lex after, and spent about..?.. half an hour deciding what DVDs to get. We got Delta Farce and Chasing Liberty in the end. 
Went back to my house and watched Disturbia while laughing at Jermaine who was struggling to do the airwalker for half an hour, which she managed to do in the end. Well done. After that we went up to play Guitar Hero for the longest time and discovered my "game face" is my "chemistry class face". Bored as hell. Haha. Then we watched Delta Farce which was insanely funny at the start.
"Iraq - a land of miracles"
Then Lex and Jerm left halfway, and Penny left at the end of the show. Kim and I annoyed her by saying "Bye" non-stop while she walked out of my house. 
Kim and I watched Chasing Liberty which is the best show!! After that we had dinner and dessert, and laughed so hard, like crazy crazy crazy at..... People's underwear.

Tessa: Kim I have to tell you something..... I saw _____'s underwear that day... before chinese exam, and I didn't know what to say so I didn't tell anyone...
Kim: HAHAHAHHA.

After that we went on talking about how we'd expect people's underwears would look like. And Kim admitted she saw ______'s underwear, and that it was old and white and wrinkly. Okay now we just sound like pervy girls.Trust me, that conversation was painfully funny. Literally. 
Gosh I always have the best time with Kim. The simplicity of her life, yet the complexity of her personality. 
LUBBJOO KIM HUTCHINSON AI LING <3

Ok pictures from the day Stef stayed over. Miss you babe, hope you're having fun in Bangkok.








I am officially addicted to Guitar Hero. 
Yours til the Rainbow Sprinkles <3


Current Mood: relieved

May 4th, 2008

12:57 pm: 15, there's still time for you.
I am f-u-c-k-e-d.
I left my chem file in school and the exam's tomorrow.
If that is't bad enough....
I dig up all my tuition notes and sec 3 notes (thank God I never throw away my worksheets), and JeanHui mah beautiful girl offers to scan in stuff for me.
But when I finally start to get down to business, nothing is going into my head.

Something tells me that I have given up on chem... Maybe the fact that I'm not even worried that nothing's going into my head?!
I think I'm going to stop studying chem (not like I started), and study history. 

Did you know my uncle was a communist? I found Mao's little red handbook. Wow, the love for Mao certainly runs in the family. Go Mao!

Yours til the Sugar Canes (:  

Current Mood: apathetic
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